Saturday, November 27, 2010
Yes the Agony ; 6:36 AM
Its been so long since I post an entry. I can certainly confirm with you that almost no one would realise I made this post. Yes the agony of not been able to be with the one you love and having people coming at you mocking and dismoralise you. Yes it hurts and its irritating.Thats wasn't all. Now she is giving me cold shoulder because I said she is pretty. =[I mean I don't go around calling her bad names. To me, she is the most beautiful girl I ever met. I really don't know how others manage to keep calling bad names and still be treated nicely by her. =/Yes, she said she treat me differently from others. Does she have higher expection from me? I mean when I ask her why the rest can call her bad name instead of me she got angry.REALLY ANGRY. I mean sometimes I couldn't do some things that others could do. ( means I do she don't laught while others do she laught )Well yea. I am really puzzled there. But still I love her. Yes, I don't mind her go angry at me. I don't mind her treating me like this. Maybe she wanted me to be more serious instead of being like a joker. One thing for sure is that I wanna be with her and I will wait for her no matter how long it takes. Yes, I am aware I might fail and waste alot of time on her. No fear! She is the only lady whom I cared so much for. Even if I fail, I would still love her and yes, I won't find other girl who is that important to me than her. Maybe I shall be a loner in my life after I fail? Cause I have tried so hard and nothing good seems to come. I would rather not fall for another girl. Well shoved this aside.I am very aware that there are alot of guys around her. =[ This makes me panic cause I don't know of their intention. I might just lose her AGAIN ( got to stress on this cause I have seen her with another guy before ='[ ). She might be saying they are her friends but to those guys, they might have hidden agenda. Dam it! I hope I can quickly settle the cold war she is giving me. Hopefully by Christmas. AND YES! I FORGIVE THOSE PEOPLE WHO CAUSES ME AND HER TO DRIFT APART. I have no time to be angry at them. I just hope that they don't ever do it again. Now I have see what I can do for Christmas.
